baby this is my spacesuit
i atomize and vibrate until i am on both sides of the room at the same time
and for a while these are the only stars we see
i want to come to you
the only thing that makes sense to me
but it might pull me apart
this the only place i can breathe
this vast and heavy thing
new cash is just an excuse
so fall asleep, it's okay
there's a wasp on the window
asking "why must you go"
he stays for a while and starts to make sense
of course, this is when he leaves
disappears without a trace
that's the way that goes
my fault
i was in the bay when zay dropped
i was in the sea when baby died
i could've left a while ago but i didn't
i was finding new cash getting a new spacesuit
and maybe i should've but i didn't
I made myself unavailable instead
(like I always do)
sorry, I'm vibrating
I'm barely here
the window is warm
my glasses are blue and the money is blue, the school, the mazda,
my fault, I am just a wasp
in a spacesuit
atomizing