all the metal dashing one way, the opposite way which I'm going
i've already decided to drive by my decisions rather than the science of the machine
& i never been one to announce my arrival
i prefer to let it speak for itself
the “science”
the parachutes and the long beach of it all
i feel like a soldier on a battlefield
& i give quite easily
i dream and through a portal, i see a friend in real time
soul intact but swimming through deep water, through a maze,
(the urge to trade places)
towards what i suppose is a name in lights ?
sometimes in hindi, sometimes in chinese characters but always in my accent
sometimes in full jester mode but she tells me not now
gently she says not now
her hands and her spirit slow to let go
(in and out of the abundance)
..
should i be thinking differently about all these recurring themes ?
bout the fishhooks and waves and lures ?
what they using as bait nowadays ?
the salt and sweet built up attracts a hummingbird
catches me and my face at the house
fluttering like the waterfall spirit
me, stuck in the haute couture
amongst .. muchas voladores
alegres, hastiadas, hambrientas
nature still comes through in needles of light, in movement
"no sun, no flowers"
..
tall lil mitsubishi van with the right side driver
rare moment of vulnerability, josh's sister picked us up
i'm tellin em how i think its really over
and i was definitely in the back seat
and i'm sure we were driving up 60th
and i'm sure i slept in my clothes that night
sunset camaro ain't made no friends
sometimes i double down
sometimes i remind you of your nerves
feverish,
out here in our very real bodies
red like rubies
quick like money slow like love
..
i get close and then i get far don't i
february why are you always so mean
why do you always make me so mean
and so soft and so tender
looking at a map, trying to find the source of the thames just by walking up the river
burnt it for a hug
demons tear off the hand when we sleep,
the stealing hand that i'm still tryna use for good,
cost me just $10 and the pain